I am now 26 years old. Currently live in Brooklyn, with my new kitten/cat named Mackerel, photo below, and two other guys who are/is not my boyfriend. I am four years closer to 30. I am simultaneously working freelance in the meantime, although on hold, putting a publication of Asian American Female Artists Voices' together with a colleague, and working on my company Bluestem Highway, and I am exhausted.
I am exhausted of perhaps living in New York. However, the small adventures, and interactions with fellow twenty something year olds, keeps me going. I wonder quite often if I'd be more happy somewhere else, perhaps home, perhaps on the west coast, ideally overseas? But, what I am finding is that as I am getting older, I have these constant questions and worries about just making the jump of doing whatever it is that I want. I used to not be like that. I would just... do. Wouldn't even think twenty steps ahead and just go with it. I'd figured it out along the way. Now I second guess almost everything, or ask the opinion of trusted friends and family. And I am pretty sure I have exhausted them of their wisdom. Does it ever stop, will I ever stop, do I need to consciously stop it, "Girl you need to stop questioning yourself."
The only accomplishment I have felt in the last year is being able to do yoga everyday. It keeps me grounded and always makes me in such a better mood. So thank you whoever invented yoga (will be looking this up).
No one ever told you what to expect after college, except for getting a job, get married potentially have kids raise them, then they go off to college. What are you supposed to do in between?
Okay done for now.
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| First day I got him :) |
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| Yesterday |
